Friday, August 26, 2011

(Third posting, "Releasing the Butterflies," 8-26.)


Chapter Seven

When I arrived at work, “W.T.” was already at his desk. The florist driver handed me these outside. I brought them into my office without thinking…..then, I noticed the attached envelope with your name. Here, they’re for you. Anne, may I ask, what are you doing receiving so many pink roses? There is obviously something going on with you that I know nothing about, or you have stock in our florist shops! Blushing, I reach for the roses as I hurried off for a vase and water. “W.T.” doesn’t need to know anything right now. I really need to see where this situation with Jonathan is heading before an explanation about my personal life is made, and maybe not even then, I thought!

It is difficult to concentrate today! Every thought is of Jonathan, and our recently shared moments…..especially yesterday at the estate after that long embrace. “W.T.,” I need to run a few office errands and deposit today’s checks in the bank. Do you need anything? No, he replied…..think I’m OK!

At the bank, I see of all people…..the florist deliveryman. How did I know he would comment? Mrs. Mayo, evidently, someone knows you are fond of pink roses. Yes, I replied! It takes a special friend to know how to make a day special. I imagine your florist appreciates the business with the economy the way it is though. Oh, yes mam, he replies red-faced ….. sheepishly lowering his head.

I’ve almost finished my office errands when off in the distance I see Jonathan’s car approaching. Anne, I’ve been called away for a few weeks. I was just on my way to your office to tell you. Can you get away for an early lunch? Not today! “W.T.” has right much lined up for me with immediate deadlines. Then, I’ll phone you once I’m settled. If you’d like we can plan a dinner outing when I return from Europe.
Anne, I really enjoyed our time spent together yesterday! I did too…..It couldn’t have been nicer! (now, my countdown begins until his return back into my life.)

This evening, as I walk…..it is a time for reflection. It is a time I now realize I needed. Somehow, today, I had forgotten my butterflies, turtles and photography. I could only think of how much I already missed him, and the fact that he would be abroad for several weeks or more.


The following day, “W.T.” called me into his office, and upon entering I find him looking tired, and as though he has lost his best friend.
Anne, He says…..I’ve always considered you not only an employee, but a dear friend. You know I’ve been out of town a lot this past year. Well, I haven’t been completely honest with you…..they have not all been business appointments and trips. I’m sorry to report that I have discovered I have a very serious health issue.

I will be trying to sell my business as I’ve decided to retire. If you’d like, you may take the remaining weeks of your vacation…..effective immediately. I would hate for you to lose any of your benefits with the company. It looks as though I may have a buyer for the business, and I have told them what a good employee you have been for me the past years. Your status will probably not change, but I was concerned about you losing your vacation days. Also, I consider you a close friend, so I wanted to be honest with you at this time. I certainly didn’t want you to hear the news from any one on the street other than me.

W.T.,” is there anything I can do? I am in total shock and speechless with disbelief! The town and I are going to miss seeing you in your business each and every day. It goes without saying, I am so sorry about your health issues.

Anne, everything is going to be alright! My surgery is scheduled in a couple of weeks, and my treatments will soon follow. I’m told the prognosis is a good one, but this has made me take stock of my life. I’ve passed retirement, and should have stopped to smell the roses long ago. Please, don’t worry…..this too, shall pass. This really isn’t about my health issue…..it is all about realizing that I should be enjoying my retirement and remaining years with my wife. There is so much we haven’t done or seen in life, and it isn’t too late to begin now!

Chapter Eight

(With much concern, I decided at “W.T.’s” insistence to use my remaining vacation. I returned to the beach, made my final decision to sell the cottage, and with mixed emotions…..I phone the realtor.)

While packing the contents of the cottage, I come across so many things with some fond memories. There is the old tarnished oil lamp that belonged to my grandmother. As a child, I remember it sitting on the center of my grandmother’s circular oak table always on a starched lace tablecloth. On my mantel, is an oak clock that had belonged to my dad.

I come across the woven sewing basket that had belonged to my mother, and still contained her needles, threads, and some of her crocheting needles. The sewing basket doesn’t hold many good memories of the era, but does hold fond memories of the pretty dresses that she made for me.

On a closet shelf, I find the box containing my childhood doll. I cannot recall the doll’s name, but I do remember my mother taking the doll (she would explain) to the doll hospital before each Christmas. On Christmas morning, the doll would be under the tree complete with a
new dress, wig, shoes, stockings, and a natural straw hat always with turned back brim.

In another box, I find my mother’s little ruby and clear cut glass candy dish with matching lid. I had given this to her one Mother’s Day, and it was returned to me after her death.

The final box I remove from the closet shelf is filled with pictures. I find the portrait of my mother as a young woman. What a sadness she had in her eyes, and such an emotionless expression on her face. My heart goes out to her for the life she always wanted, and never was able to obtain.

The next morning, I’m awakened by the sound of breaking waves and noisy sea gulls overhead. I hurriedly dress and rush to the kitchen for coffee.

This is my last walk in the ocean this vacation. With coffee in hand…..I long to linger for another day or two! Realizing this is impossible, I
head back to the cottage to ready myself for the return trip home to my Bedford.

Upon entering the cottage, the sun has fallen on and illuminates a former wooden candy box holder. I had forgotten the box on the library shelf, and as I raise the lid to view the contents and forgotten treasures…..my eyes fall on a letter from my dear sister, Sheryl.






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